Rest a while

During the Communion ritual the Eucharistic minister holds up in front of each communicant a small, round, white host and declares boldly, “The Body of Christ” to which each declares equally boldly, “Amen”

Really?

Equally, a Eucharistic minister holds in front of the communicant a cup made either of a precious metal, or glass, or a ceramic substance and declares, “The Blood of Christ” and again the reply, “Amen”

Really?

Body and Blood! And we willingly consume each!

Few things speak as wonderfully about life as does the smell of fresh bread.

The smell of fresh bread makes you hungry.

And yet bread begins its life ground!

Kernels of wheat that had to be ground in their individuality to become something communal, flour, which then had to endure fire to be baked into the substance that gives off the smell of life.

Bread begins life brutally!

As St Augustine once said in a homily:

“For surely this loaf was not made from one grain of wheat. The grains were separate before they came together to became one loaf. They were joined together by water, after first having been ground.  For if the many kernels are not ground and are not moistened by water, they could not come to this form, that we call a loaf. … And then without fire, there is still not a loaf of bread. (Sermon 272)

Bread must be baked in a fierce heat. Bread then speaks of both joy and pain.

Wine too speaks in this double way: On the one hand, it is a festive drink, the more solemn the occasion the more expensive the wine chosen.

In some cultures, it is a sign of festivity; in others it is common and communal.

Wine speaks of family, of gathering, of friendship, community, of love, of remembering.

We celebrate, with wine.

However, like bread, wine has another side: It begins its life, crushed!

Individual grapes are crushed and, in their being crushed they are bonded.

Bread – calling to be eaten after having been ground and fired.

Wine – calling to be drunk after having been crushed and been brought together.

Eucharist is more than a small round white host.

Eucharist is more than a gleaming chalice.

Eucharist is about being ground. Eucharist is about being crushed.

Eucharist is about being fired; Eucharist is about being bonded.

Let us consider this before we say boldly, “Amen”.

New Zealand’s free school lunch programme Ka Ora, Ka Ako – Healthy School Lunches, was launched by the Labour government in 2019 with the aim of reducing food insecurity, and “putting students in a good place to learn”.

Initially a two-year initiative for primary and intermediate students, it was expanded to secondary schools in February 2020.

Currently almost 230,000 students from over a thousand schools and kura get a free lunch every school day through the programme. That’s around a million lunches every week.

The name Ka Ora, Ka Ako is about being healthy and well to be in a good place to learn.

(The Māori word, ora means life, or to be alive, and the word ako means to both teach and learn.)

While in opposition, the Act Party campaigned on abolishing the programme, with leader David Seymour calling Ka Ora, Ka Ako “wasteful”, “unaffordable”, and a “marketing stunt”.

Now we have a National-Act-NZ First coalition government and David Seymour, as associate minister of education, has been put in charge of the free school lunch programme, which is under review. “I’ve said as Act it’s a huge waste of money and it should be gone,” he said on radio recently.

How can feeding children be a “huge waste of money”?

I have lived and worked in an area where such a free school lunch programme is in effect. Seeing young children with smiles on their face and a twinkle in their eye does not accord for me as being “wasteful”, “unaffordable”, and a “marketing stunt”. And those words spoken by a member of Parliament on a Cabinet salary and travel perks galore.

‘Where are we to buy bread for these people to eat?’ (Jn 6:5)

Kids learn better with a full stomach. Parents, teachers and principals all agree on that.

Fortunately, with allocation of some $478 million in the current Budget the school lunch programme has been spared from the chopping block and will continue in its current form for the rest of the year.

It may be as equally true of adults as of children when being taught – they learn better with a full stomach.

In this Sunday’s Gospel is about being taught and being fed.

“When he looked up and saw a large crowd coming toward him, Jesus said to Philip, “Where are we to buy bread for these people to eat?”

It is also about someone/something having to give away in order that others may be fed.

 “There is a boy here who has five barley loaves and two fish. But what are they among so many people?” Jesus said, “Make the people sit down.” Now there was a great deal of grass in the place; so they sat down, about five thousand in all. Then Jesus took the loaves, and when he had given thanks, he distributed them to those who were seated; so also the fish, as much as they wanted.

For many, our lives are often like an over-packed suitcase.

It seems like we are always busy and overpressured, always one phone call, text message, email, visit, and task behind.

We are forever anxious about what we have still left undone, about whom we have disappointed, about unmet expectations.

At times, we can feel like we are on a treadmill from which we would want to step off.

And within all that busyness, pressure, noise, and tiredness, there is, in us, an urge, a desire for solitude.

We long for some quiet, restful place where all the pressure and noise will stop, and we can sit and simply rest.

That is a healthy yearning. It is our soul speaking.

Like our body, our soul keeps trying to tell us what it needs.

The soul needs solitude.

But solitude is not easy to find.

Why?

We tend to picture solitude in a naïve way as something that we can “soak ourselves in” like we would a warm bath.

We tend to picture solitude as busy, pressured, and tired. We finally have a chance to slip away for a weekend.

We rent a bach, a place away in a secluded environment.

We may take ourselves to a monastery or a retreat facility, somewhere without noise and without the rush.

We pack some food and some soft music, but we resist packing phones, iPads, or laptops.

This is to be a quiet time, a time to listen to the birds sing or the waves breaking on the beach, a time to walk in the forest, a time to sit with my God, a time of solitude.

However, solitude cannot be so easily programmed.

We can set up all the optimum conditions for it, but that is no guarantee we will find it.

For solitude is not found in an external place or space.

No matter how remote a physical place we find, “we take ourselves with us.”

Solitude is not essentially a physical location or space outside of myself; rather, it is an internal way of being present in the now, which in turn requires attending to and holding all that is calling for my attention.

Solitude is not something we turn on like a water tap.

It needs a body and mind slowed down enough to be attentive to the present moment.

We are in solitude when, as Merton says, we fully taste the water we are drinking, feel the warmth of our blankets, and are restful enough to be content inside our own skin.

Solitude, I suggest, is being fully attentive to the present moment.

A process that I have found valuable in attending to that internal solitude is what is known as “Clearing the Space”.

Each morning, I begin my prayer time by imagining there is a wicker basket at my feet, and I ask the question, “what is calling for my attention?” and I wait for whatever arises.

I acknowledge whatever comes, and I gently place that issue in the basket.

I then ask the question again and attend to what arises similarly.

For example, this morning, in my basket, there was a time to schedule a haircut, a time to pay my Spark Account, remember to put my washing in the machine, and, of course, thoughts on what I am writing right now!

Each of these issues, though valid, were taking up space inside me, and clambering for my attention.

As I acknowledged each issue and placed it in the basket, a clear, quiet, inviting space began to develop inside of me.

Into that space I breathed my prayer word for today, Yahweh – breathed as two syllables, breathing in – Yah, breathing out -weh.

At the end of the prayer time (no more than 20 minutes; God does not wear a watch, I collected what had been resting in the basket, made them mine again, and attended to them.

It is important to reclaim what I have left aside for the time of prayer. These things are mine!